I know what it feels like to be choking on my own shadows.
To be swimming in shame and guilt.
To be afraid of myself.
To not trust myself.
To feel like there are 5 different people or personalities living within myself.
To not understand the different dimensions of myself.
I also know what it feels like to ‘be stuck’.
To fear what the rest of the world would think of me.
“If they only knew what I had done”…
“If they only knew what I had been through”…
I didn’t give anyone a chance to understand.
Swimming in my own loneliness.
Crying on the inside.
Until one day my dark shadows heard me.
They seduced me from my pain.
They told me there was no need to feel pain.
And I believed them.
They showered me with presents that would take my pain away.
I opened them all.
I explored them.
My shadows taught me the more I binged the less pain I would feel.
I learnt how to stop the pain.
I learnt how to escape and numb my feelings.
I gave my power away.
I may as well have sold my soul.
But no matter how much I binged the darkness of my shadows continued to grow.
The shame and the guilt also continued to grow.
Ashamed of my life.
Ashamed of my past.
Ashamed of my present.
Ashamed of my own self.
Ashamed of my behaviour.
Feeling soul destroying guilt from my actions and decisions.
I wondered if there was ever a way out?
I could at least entertain that wild thought…
I started to take the time to understand.
I started to commit to my inward journey.
I started to take the time to dig & discover.
And boy was I surprised what I found…
‘Hell’ was the state of my mind.
‘Hell’ was my own creation.
‘Hell’ was my chosen reality.
I understood I was the problem.
But I was also the solution.
I committed to facing my shadows.
I committed to taking responsibility.
I committed to doing the deep internal work to understand myself to change myself.
Did you know…
PAIN IS A PROCESS THAT SERVES A PURPOSE.
In the darkness is where we grow…
Will you make a commitment to yourself and take the time to face your own shadows?
…Isn’t it time to stop giving your power away?
Yours in Life & Soul Transformation,
Speaker | Writer | Healer | Intuitive Coach
💜 Always an honour to guide you.